from the beginning

I have been in this crazy crazy city for almost two months. Let me tell you, I might have jumped on the whole” I want to move to a big city” idea little too quickly. It has been crazy as I said before. Crazy and exhilarating, and scary and fun all wrapped into one. With everything I have been dealing with, I have had to tack on moving into my very own apartment and trying to furnish it and making it feel as close to home as possible. I have also had to teach myself how to do things all by my lonesome instead of being able to just pick up the phone and call someone to hang out with. On top of that, I have had to learn how to cook. It is safe to say however, that my first time didn’t go as badly as Dave’s did…(Love you Davey)

I still have to muster the courage to venture out by myself to the unknown, but that is getting better with time. Actually, as I sat and wrote all this, I had just arrived in downtown Chicago for a conference on a street that I had never been on before. I got lost. The train ride was a new experience as well. It’s a good thing I am ok with being in small spaces because as I made my way top the conference center, I stood no farther than 3 inches from a complete stranger. FACE TO FACE. He was all up in my personal bubble. I don’t let anyone stand that close…but again…what choice did I have??? It is definitely not something I could endure on a regular basis though.

For those of you who have been keeping track, to date, I have lost 45 pounds. Crazy I know, but I only have a little more to go. It has been a struggle to not worry people any more than they already are and still try to lose my last couple of pounds. My disorder, it seems, has taken its toll on me. But, I promise it’s not as bas as it could be, or even as bad as it has been in the past. And, I am only open about this so you guys will support me. I don’t need lectures, they don’t do anything. Just prayers. Pray that I can finally begin to live in this enormous city as opposed to how I felt in WF and I will continue to lose weight (only 5 more to go!!!).

With Labor Day coming up, I have a three-day weekend to try and learn a little more about Chi-town. I’m going try and do a little more exploring, but who knows how far I will get. I’m doing it alone and we all know how I feel about that. Anyone want to come keep me company???

I know this has been a long time coming and this is a very long post, but I will try to get better about updating those who care. Pray for me, but please do not worry. I haven’t died yet, and if that does occur, I’ll let you know.

Before I go, I want to give a quick shout out to Davey (I love you always and forever!!!), Daniel (I still have the flashlight/spotlight for whenever we need to travel down the dark path…lets just make sure we each have a buddy), and Andie (I just flipped through the new J Crew catalog and totally thought of you as I picked out everything I wanted, including a pair of practical shoes, and a pair that was just too pretty to not want!!)

with love <3>